Thursday, September 29, 2011

Sing You Home by Jodi Picoult-It still hurts.

As many of you might not know, I love to read. I actually do alot of books on cd's. While I drive to work I listen to many books. This one book I just finished, Sing You Home,was very good. But it left me bawling my eyes out sometimes. As the main character talks about miscarriages, going through infertility issues, IVF, etc. I found myself still raw with emotion about my own past of miscarriages and infertility. The pain does not go away because I have a son. Those years were the worst years of my life. My heart goes out to the many people who battle infertility and miscarriages. Its unfair and heartbreaking. My son is my miracle baby and I look at him every night sleeping and think how lucky and thankful I am to have him in our lives.
We are trying for another baby. As each month passes, I do still feel disappointment that I didn't get pregnant. Its sad to say this, I feel guilty even thinking it, I should just be happy with him, but it still hurts getting my period every month. I want to give Luca a brother or sister. I have to admit the pain is lesser than it was before I had my son but it still hurts. I am giving myself a few more months and I will be contacting my RE again. I just want to make sure all is ok and if I need to go through IVF again, I will, in a second. It was the best thing I ever did. I often think about my miscarriages and how I mend my heart I say. "They weren't Luca. God wanted me to have Luca.I was meant to be Luca's mom."

Here is the synopsis of Sing You Home:
Zoe Baxter has spent ten years trying to get pregnant, and after multiple miscarriages and infertility issues, it looks like her dream is about to come true – she is seven months pregnant. But a terrible turn of events leads to a nightmare – one that takes away the baby she has already fallen for; and breaks apart her marriage to Max.

In the aftermath, she throws herself into her career as a music therapist – using music clinically to soothe burn victims in a hospital; to help Alzheimer’s patients connect with the present; to provide solace for hospice patients. When Vanessa – a guidance counselor -- asks her to work with a suicidal teen, their relationship moves from business to friendship and then, to Zoe’s surprise, blossoms into love. When Zoe allows herself to start thinking of having a family, again, she remembers that there are still frozen embryos that were never used by herself and Max.

Meanwhile, Max has found peace at the bottom of a bottle – until he is redeemed by an evangelical church, whose charismatic pastor – Clive Lincoln – has vowed to fight the “homosexual agenda” that has threatened traditional family values in America. But this mission becomes personal for Max, when Zoe and her same-sex partner say they want permission to raise his unborn child.

SING YOU HOME explores what it means to be gay in today’s world, and how reproductive science has outstripped the legal system. Are embryos people or property? What challenges do same-sex couples face when it comes to marriage and adoption? What happens when religion and sexual orientation – two issues that are supposed to be justice-blind – enter the courtroom? And most importantly, what constitutes a “traditional family” in today’s day and age?